I’m a mid-life mom, writer and underemployed freelance television and event producer just trying figure my shit out while simultaneously not screwing up my kid.
My mission is to share the personal, difficult, embarrassing, funny and ridiculous life experiences and lessons learned that inspire enlightenment, lift hearts and remind us all that we are not alone.
I moved 21 times by the time I was 24 across four states and 16 cities. I went to four elementary schools, one middle school and four high schools. I was sexually assaulted in a grocery store parking lot by a stranger at 6-years-old. I grew up around drugs, going to bars and driving a car by 9-years-old. I started drinking heavily at age 12. I started doing all drugs available to me when I was 14 and ended up expelled from school, in rehab and raped by a stranger all in the same year at 15-years-old. I was on my own at 17, living with unsavory people in unsavory situations, to put it mildly.
You could say that by the mature age of six, I knew Santa wasn’t real, life was not going to be a safe walk down Sesame Street, and I was destined to learn everything the hard way.
In the two decades since that mess of a childhood, I managed to set my sights on a lifelong goal of having a career as a television Producer, which I relentlessly pursued with laser focus. Turns out I was extremely good at it and eventually my work traveled me to 17 countries across the globe, seeing places and meeting people I never would have imagined possible. I also won the husband lottery, managing to stay together and married to an amazing man for a combined 19 years and counting, in which we brought the most amazing child into the world that will far surpass me in every way possible someday.
Now in my 40’s, I have successfully achieved life’s ultimate challenge – to grow the fuck up.
My message is one of perseverance, overcoming the obstacles that hold you back, and not letting your mistakes in the past define who you are or who you want to be. We are all capable of being better people.
I don’t have all the answers. No post of mine will make your life complete. What I give to you is honesty, self-depricating humor and lessons learned so that, just maybe, we all don’t have to (keep) learn(ing) the hard way.